DreaMatrix - the dream world

This is a continuation to my earlier article "Living in your dreams" which was incomplete. Say a person average lifetime is 60 years. He does so many things in this span of life. But on an average he will be sleeping for 8hrs/day. It means out of 60 years of life, 20 years he will be just sleeping and doing nothing else. Now how many of you think that this is a waste?
In my case, the time I spend for sleeping is not wasted, because sleeping is not just like any other thing that I do in my life. Through sleeping, I get a chance to live in a different world, that is "my world of dreams"(dream-world) or you can also call it "the second world" or "virtual world" and I named it as "DreaMatrix".

DreaMatrix is a virtual world were I have the control on most of the things that have/can/will happen. I get plugged into this world once I go to sleep on my bed. I can be anything and do anything I wish in this world. I can be a super hero, a college going guy, a passoinate lover, a common man or just be myself. In this world I even have the ability to travel in time. I can go back to my childhood, my college days and even in to the future. I can just switch between countries and places in few seconds. Most the people I know in this real world also exist in the virtual one just playing their original characters. I also do see some virtual characters, like a monster when I am a super hero, or a unknown girl with whom I am in love. If I am really missing someone, and they are too far from me in the real world, I can just go and see them in the virtual world. Like I can just go to India and see my parents, I can go back to the past college days, see my college and friends. Nothing can stop. I can even go to the future and see my friends, my sister or sometime even myself getting married. For some reason if I get kicked out of the virtual world in the middle of a situation/scene, like any disturbance, or if I have to wake up (as I have to go to work); there is a possiblitly that the next time I go back to sleep, I enter the virtual world and can continue from where I left. Though I break a lot of rules that we follow in the real world, I do respect some.

Often, it is really easy for me to get into this world, but most of the times it turns out to be tough to get out of it, because I have to wake up and I am very lazy to do so. And most of the times it is tough to figure/find out that I am actually in a dream, then I would be thinking that's the reality and would continue in that mode. It is really strange that sometime, I will know that I am actually in my dream world. That is when I tend to have a control over it. I am a big time movie lover. So most of the things/scenes happening in the virtual world would be filmi/movie style. So every time I enter this world there is a specific story with a theme. The story is then processed and a script is written with interesting scenes. These scenes are directed one at a time with tight screenplay and crisp/sharp editing. And I hold the total control of all these. In some cases I might just leave the control to "fate" as it happens in real world. But all this goes in vain, because the moment I wake up, I hardly remember any of this stuff, my mind will be just left with some traces. I think really hard to trace it back, but doesn't help much. But, I do remember some of them.
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In general, it is not just me, but most us do dream a lot. Many a times when we are surprised by some action/situation we pinch ourselves to feel the difference between dream and reality. It is the nature of most dreams that we take them for reality and while dreaming we are unaware that we are in fact in a dream-world. Even if we know we are in a dream, would we be able to take control of the situation and circumstances and take or change any further actions that take place in the dream? Would we be able to respond the way we want to? Would we be able to do anything in the dream? Does our senses work in a dream? Tough to answer these questions. It is obvious that we eventually wake up, and realize that it is in fact a dream and the most or some part of the experience is stored in the mind. It is really hard for most of us to remember where it started or where it ended and what all happened in a dream.

Most of us, at one time or another, have been struck with the thought that we might mistake a dream for reality, or reality for a dream. When we dream we are often blissfully ignorant that we are dreaming. Given this, and the fact that dreams often seem as vivid and realistic as real life, how can you rule out the possibility that you might be dreaming even now, as you sit at your computer and read this? It seems we have no justification for the belief that we are not dreaming. If so, then it seems we similarly have no justification in thinking that the world we experience is the real world. What if the world round us is not real? Then are we just some fictional characters living in a dream of the Almighty?

manchi x chedu, thappu x oppu

This post is written in Telugu (language).

edhi manchi? edhi chedu? edhi thappu? edhi oppu?

Manaki thelisindhe manchi, manam chesedhi oppu anukovatam lo thappemi ledhu. Alage itharula vishayam lo kooda vaallaki thelisindhi vaallaki manchi anipinchachu, vaallu chesedhi vaallaki oppu anipinchachu. Prathi okkaru oke laaga, leka manalaaga alochinchali ani anukolemu kadha. Manchi ayina chedu ayina, thappu ayina oppu ayina vaari vaari abhiprayalu, samayam-sandharbham, paristhithulu batti, vaari alochana vidhanam maruthundhi. ee prakriyalo eeroju manaki thappu/chedu anipinchedhi, repu oppu/manchi anipinchachu; ee roju nachani vyakthi repu nachanuvachu.

Manam putti, manaki ooha thelisinappati nunchi prathi roju edho okati (oka vishayam) nerchukuntam. Perigina parisaralu, mana thalli-thandrula pempakam, guruvulu cheppe vidhya-budhulu, bandhuvulu, snehithulu, peddalu, samajamlo, jeeevithamlo jarigina sangatanalu, ila prathi okka chota, prathi okka saari, prathi okkari deggera, yedho okati, yentho kontha nerchukuntune untam. Andhuchetha prathi okkaru nirdhisthamayina abhiprayalatho oka alochana vidhanam erparuchukuni, vaati adharanga jeevitham sagisthamu. Veeti adharanga edhi manchi/oppu, edhi chedu/thappu ani pariseelinche ingitha gnanam (common sense) penchukuntam.

udhaharanaki madhyapanam, dhoomapanam (drinking alcohol, smoking cigarattes) chedu alavatlu antaru chaala mandhi. ee alavatlu unde varini asahyinchukune vaalu kooda untaru. evari alavatlu vaarivi, inkokari alavtla gurinchi manam endhuku vaarini dveshinchali, leka varu chedda vyakthulu anukovali? aa alavatlu undatam valla vaariki chedu kaani, manaki kaadhu kadha. ala kakunda aa alavatuni itharula payina rudhatam, leka itharulaki ibandhi kaliginchadam thappakunda thappe. naa drushtilo edhuti manishini badha pettakunda chesey pani edhayina oppe, padhi mandhiki upayoge pade pani edhayina manche.

Alage ithanu (palaana vyakthi) manchivadu kadu, ithanu naaku nachaledhu ani manalo manam, mana snehithulatho antoo untam. Oka manishi naaku nachakapothe adhi naa samasya (problem) kaani athani samasya kaadhu. Endhukante naa alochana vidhanam, manushulni pareeseelinche vidhanam batti oka vyakthi naaku nachaledhu, adhi kevalam naa abhiprayam. Kevalam okari abhiprayam adharanga oka manishi cheddavadu ani ela anukuntam?

prathi okkarilonu manchi chedulu untayi. Prathi okkaru edho okasari edho oka thappu chesi untaru. Edhuti vaari abhiprayalani, alochana vidhanaanni kinchapariche hakku manaki ledhu. Manam choosina jeevitham lo, manam thelusukunna prapancham lo manam nerchukundhi gorantha, nerchukovalsindhi, thelusukovalsindhi kondantha. Ala yerojuki aaroju prathi okkari deggara, prathi okka chota, edho okati entho kontha nerchukuntoo mana alochana vidhanam, abhiprayalanu savarinchukuntoo undali, anthe.

Kosamerupu: Eeroju naaku ila anipinchindhi kabatti ila raasanu, repu inkola anipinche avakasam undhi.

Chivari maata: Kevalam naa abhiprayalu, alochana vidhanam, naa jeevitham lo jarigina sangatanala adharanga nenu idhi raasanu. idhi evarini udhesinchidhi kaadhu, evari abhiprayalani vyathirekinchalani kadhu. Oka vela meeku ala anipisthe kshaminchagelaru.

I am Happy :)

I am Happy.... I am Happy......

I am Happy that I cannot see this beautiful world and all great creations by God, because I busy with my laptop.
I am Happy that I cannot sing, I cannot dance, I cannot jump, I cannot shout, because I am in a deep sleep.
I am Happy, because I have a wonderful family- best parents, caring siblings, well wishers.
I am Happy, that I don't have a lot of friends, because I have few good friends.
I am Happy, that I am not eating anything today, because I am on a diet.
I am Happy, that I don't have a dress to wear, because I did not do my laundry.
I am Happy, that I did not have job for one year, because I got one today.
I am Happy, that I don't have money in my pocket, because I use credit cards.
I am Happy, that I am bored, because the movie is not good.
I am Happy, that I was not able to get a doctor appointment, because I don't need one.

I am Happy, Yes I am :)
I am Happy, because I am still existing in this beautiful world.

Are you???

Dasvidaniya - The Best Good Bye Ever

Dasvidaniya is a Hindi Movie, released some time in November,2008. The movie is about a normal person, a middle class bachelor 'Amar Kaul' who goes to work early in the morning, prepares a things to do list for the day and after working for 10+ hours returns home making sure he has got all his listed things done. A routine visit to a doctor reveals that he has stomach cancer and will be "living" only for next 3 months. He realizes that he has been "dead" all these days and decides to "live the life" for this 3 months.
Each and everyone of us can connect with Amar's character. We see Amar in our daily life. If you haven't, after you are done reading this, and after you watch the movie go and see yourself in front of a mirror and think for a moment.

"Amar is symbolic of all these people who have always wanted to do things but kept them on hold." -(from Dasvidaniya website)

Just think about what do you do every day right from the time you wake up to the time you go to bed. And if someone asks you what do you do daily. Most of us would say, "It is a routine life. I go to work, come back late, tired and stressed out, don't have enough time and energy to do other stuff, so I go back to bed. In the weekends I need to take care my house, my car, my laundry, go to a movie/go out with friends." That's not bad. Most us might be doing some things which we would like to do in our lives and most us might be happy with it. I just want everyone of us to think what other things we always wanted to do in our life, but would often neglect/ignore/forget or never really start thinking seriously about doing them.

It can be anything. Let me give you some examples of things what most people would like to do, but have some reasons for not doing them.
"I want to meet/call my friend(s) but didn't get a chance or don't have enough time."
"I wanted to say something to my friend/ someone special, but didn't have the courage in me."
"I want to say how much I love my parents/friends/or someone special, but didn't get a chance or don't have enough time. "
"I had a problem with my friend/or someone special, and we never spoke to each other. I would like to talk to/meet that person, but I can't because I have a ego problem."
"I want to help someone, someone who is in a need. Like orphan kids, people dying with hunger, people who doesn't have basic commodities, physically/mentally challenged people."

If you ask me, I always wanted to all of the above and even more.
"I would like to learn how to play a guitar/piano. I love to dance and would want to learn more."
"I would like to go on a trip to Europe, Paris,...... New York(at least)......"
"I would like to go the gym, loose some weight and try to be fit."
"I love to cook, so I would like to try more and more varieties."
"I would like to go back to India and stay with my parents and take of them."

The list goes on and on.....
It can be anything. It can be as simple as, "going early to work and getting back home early, so that I can sit in my balcony and have a cup of coffee, watching people around and enjoying the cool breeze."

Why don't we start thinking about things we would like/love to do and make a list of it. Make some time out our busy schedule and try to do atleast somethings out of our big list.
I don't want anyone to totally change the way they lead their life. I am nobody to tell you how to lead your life or that you are not happy with your life. After all it is your life, "just think of it". Most of us are gifted with everything we need to live. Every person in this world has problems. Do we really have problems? I don't have any. We are atleast lucky to be still alive.

So why don't we "live the life". "We are not sure if we would have another life. It's now or never"

Note - You might think this article is good/decent/bad or just a piece of crap. But, please do watch the movie(Dasvidaniya) if you can. You might not miss a lot, but you will miss "some-thing" (in your life) if you miss this movie.

Disclaimer - This movie made quite an impact on my mind/thinking. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. If you think that the way I think is wrong, please forgive me.

Extraas - After watching this movie, I actually had the courage to talk to my best friend about a major decision in his life. I always wanted to tell him about this "one thing", but was afraid that I would mess up and he might take it in a wrong way. I was ignoring. But after all he is my friend and I have to make him realize what I think about "it". Now I am very happy that I have atleast tried, and it is upto him to take a decision, because it's his life.

okka chance, okka prayatham (completed)

"If you try for something, there is a chance that you might get it. But, if you never try there is no chance of getting anything."

The rest of the article is written in telugu.

"okka chance.. oke okka chance", idhi KHADGAM cinemalo Ravi Teja dialouge.
aa okka chance isthe thanento choopistha ani cinemalo Ravi Teja ne kaadhu, nija jeevitham lo chaala mandhi feel avutharu. Aa chance evaro istharu ani wait cheyakunda maname aa chance kosam prayathnam cheyali ani choopinchadu, sadhinchadu.
So manam kashtapadi prayathnisthe edhayina sadhinchachu ani thelusukunnam kadha....

okka chance kosam enno prayathnalu cheyyali.....kaani enni avakasalu(chance lu) unna asalu kondharu prayathname cheyyaru. avakasam oka sare thalupu koduthundhi antaru, ante avakasam antha viluvayyindhi kadha. mari kondhariki avakasam thalupu koduthoone unna, okkasari ayina thalupu therichi chooddam anna prayathnam endhuku cheyyaru?
repu aa avakasam chejaaripoyaka, ayyo okka sari prayathnam cheyyalsindhi anukukoni badhapadatam thappa inkemi cheyyalem.

udhaharanaki(for example), oka job ki try chesthe vachche chance untundhi anukondi, kaani "aaahh entho mandhi apply chestharu, daaniki chaala talent kaavali" ani vaari meedha vaariki confidence lekunda vadhilestharu kondharu.

inko sandharbham lo, oka ammayi - oka abbayi, idharu manchi friends, okarante okariki cheppalenantha ishtam. idhi premo mari emo??? ane confusion iddhari lo untundhi, adhi common. Asalu antha ishtam unnapudu, okka sari serious ga alochinchi, okariki okaru, ledha evaro okaru chepthene kadha katha mundhuku saagedhi. Aha ala cheyyaru, chepthe emavuthundhi, emanukuntaro; mana pakka vaalu (society, friends) emanukuntaro, parents emantaro. Ivanni vaale oohinchesukoni, edho veellani minchina medhavulu leranukoni; pros./cons. derive chesesi, analysis lu chesesi... Last ki idhi ayye pani kaadhule ani vadhilestharu. Ammayi ki evadithono pelli, abbayiki inkevarithono pelli. Arey, manaki thelisina, nachina, baaga ishtapadina vyakthi, mana jeevithaantham thodunde avakasam vachindhi, adhi sadhviniyogam chesukovali kadha, okka prayathnam chesi unte phalitham(result) undedhemo?

andhariki preminchi pellilu chesukomani nenu cheppatledhu, aa situation lo unde vaalu ila manchi avakasam pogottukuntunnaru ani chepthunna.

prema(love), sneham(friendship), bandhuthvam(relationship), chaduvu(education), undhyogam(job), vyaparam(business) ila mana jeevitham lo enno bhaagalu(parts) unnayi. prathi okka bhaagam(part of life) lo prathi okka paniki edho oka phalitham(result) untundhi. Adhi Otamo - gelupo, macho - chedo; edhayina sare. Manam chese pani thappu kaadhu ani manaki poorthi vishwasam unnapudu phalitham asinchadhu, asalu oohinchaddhu.. mana prayathnam manam cheddham. repu phalitham ela unna, kannesam...kaneesam...okka prayathnam chesam anna thrupthi ayina miguluthundhi.

evaru nenu?

This is written in telugu.

evaru nenu? nenu evaru? nenu meeku thelusa? ani nenu mimmalni adagatam ledhu.
idhi chadhive vaaru ee prasnani thamaku thaamu vesukovalsinadhi, samadhanam vethukkovalsinadhe.
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nenu evaru? evaru nenu? nannu nenu gurthupattalekunnanu
naaku nenu nachinantha inkevariki nachanemo
nannu nenu dweshinchinantha inkevaru cheyyaremo
naaku nene goppa anukune naaku pichi emo
ninna unna nenu nedu endhuku lenu
nenu nedu cheppalenu repu evaru nenu
nenu kaani nenu nenu endhuku ayyanu
naaku nenu arthamkaanu nenu evaro thelusukolenu
nenu evaru? evaru nenu? nannu nenu gurthupattalekunnanu

Enjoy the life :)

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. The conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and in life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups."

Now consider this: Life is the coffee and the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life, and do not change the quality of life. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided. So, don't let the cups drive you ... enjoy the coffee instead!

Courtesy: Picked from a forwarded email.