How to Stop Worrying and Start Living ???

I was coming back from India after a 5 week long vacation. I was at the Shamshabad airport - baggage checked-in,done with security check and waiting at the gate. I had more than an hour before the boarding starts. I was wandering in the terminal searching for a place to do something so that I can kill some time (didn't want to put-on my iPod/iPhone). I saw some interesting food place called "Khao Galli", got a "Filter Coffee",and a bottle of water. On my way back to the gate I saw a book store, "Odyssey" (it is a book store chain in India). I was never into reading books, so I never bought/borrowed one. Even if some gifts me a book, it will just be lying like any other piece of item in my room. Though I am not into reading books, I always wanted to make it as a habit, but was never successful. Since I had nothing else to do, I went into the book store. I passed through fiction, non-fiction...etc...etc...and directly went into section of books like personality/self development, life changing...kind of books. I was searching like I had something in my mind. I found few books that had some interesting titles and one of them was "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living". The other books were about marriage and commitments, and I will not be talking about it this time.

Coming back to the book I picked first, "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living". I didn't pick this because I need it. Not that I don't worry and my life is perfect. I do worry about somethings at sometimes, but I don't stop living. I kind of also learned to deal with worries over the past few years. If you have read my previous posts some of them talk about troubles/problem/worries in life, and how we don't deal with them and just give up. I started to read this book at the airport and continued it after boarding the flight. May be this is the first book(non-academic) that I have read with so much interest and concentration. I was so much into it. I read couple of chapters and I liked most of it, because I already follow most of the rules and formulas that were listed in the book to manage/minify worries in day-to-day life.

But the main magic formula by Willis H. Carrier, was something I liked the most because knowing or unknowingly that is the formula of my life from a really long time. I know a lot of people who follow this, and also know a lot of people who should follow this. Tt is really simple, check it out.

"When ever you worry about something. Try this:
1. Ask yourself, "What is the worst that can possibly happen if I can't solve my problem?
2. Prepare yourself mentally to accept the worst--if necessary.
3. Then calmly try to improve upon the worst--which you have already mentally agreed to accept."
- Willis H. Carrier

It's been a week since I last read this book, I am back to my routine life and kind of shelved the book, but I will go back to it and finish it, because I didn't buy this book for myself, I will pass this on to my friends who might need it.

Square root of 3

I am not a big fan of Harold and Kumar movies, but they are OK.
I saw the Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay movie last weekend, I don't want to talk about the movie, but I really liked the poem that Kumar says towards the climax which he wrote long back while working on some calculus problems. I thought it was written for the movie, but actually when I searched for it, I came to know that it was written by David Feinberg, a writer who also happens to be a mathematician.

Here is the peom:

I’m sure that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic

I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

As quietly co-waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Your love for me has been renewed

-David Feinberg

Me, Myself & Movies - How it all started...

This post is written in Telugu (language).

nenu sagam jeevitham cinemalalo gadipesa,
jeevitham lo sagam paatalu cinemalalo chadivesa.

nenu oka friend tho chat chesthoo naaku telugu cinema meedha unna abhimanam (pichi) vyakthaparusthoo cheppina vakyam idhi. Koncham athiga undachu kaani adhi nijam.
naaku ooha thelisinappati nunchi naaku cinemalu ante pichi. naaku 5 years unnappudu chiranjeevi's State Rowdy movie vachindhi, appatinunche chiranjeevi fan nenu :). appudu naaku final exams sarigga gurthuledhu kaani LKG no UKG no :). Maa nanna exams ayyaka cinemaki theesukoniveltha ani chepparu. exams ayyaka theatre ki velthe aa roju tickets dorakaledhu, aa roju boruna varsham kurusthundhi, cinema choodalsindhe ani nenu edavatam start chesa, maa nanna velli manager tho matladi tickets emayina dorukuthayemo ani prayathnincharu, kaani kudaraledhu, manager edho thikkaga vaagadu, maa nanna vaditho godava pettukunnaru, kotta boyaru kooda, akhariki cinemaki vellaleka poyamu. Appudu inka thappani paristhithullo pakka theatre lo preminchukundham ra cinema ki......aaahaaa kadhu kadhu appatiki aa cinema ekkada undhi....Qayamath se Qayamath Thak cinemaki vellamu. Bahusa naaku choosanu ani gurthunna first hindi cinema anukunta adhi. Marasati roju malli maa nanna state rowdy cinemaki ticketlu advance ga book chesi naaku cinema choopincharu anukondi. Idhi gurthuvachinappudalla maa nanna naaku hero laga kanipistharu, chiranjeevi cinema choospinchalani naakosam antha kashtapaddaru/fight chesaru ani. silly ga unna sincere ga chepthunna :P.

Aa tharuvatha choosina cinemalu ekkuva gurthuledhu kaani, naaku 6-7 years appudu Jagadeka Veerudu Athiloka Sundari movie vachindhi, theatre lo choosi untanu kaani gurthuledhu. Aa cinema video tape eppudeduppudu release avuthundha ani aathruthaga edhuruchoose vaadini. prathi roju maa inti dheggara unna video shop ki velli vaadini adigindhe malli malli adigevadini, "jagadeka veerudu athiloka sundari cassete vachindha uncle". Adhi 1991 anukunta exams ayyaka summer holidays, friends tho aatalu adi, edhurintlo cinemalu choosi adapa dhadapaga enjoy chesthoo unna time adhi. appatlo maa intlo TV undatame ekkuva, appatiki cable ledhu anukunta Dooradharshan okate dikku. Pandhula pempakam, grama dharshini, urdhu sanchika karyakramalu choodaleka video shop lo nunchi cinemalu thechukoni maa edhurintlo VHS player lo pillalu andharam cinemalu choosevallam. Nenu prathi roju aa video shop ki velthoone undevadini, adhi naakoka mini-swargam laaga. edhuru choosi choosi akariki okaroju Jagadekaveerudu Athiloka Sundhari tape vachindhi ane news naa jeevitham lo merupu la merisi, urumu la urumi, vanala kurisi vasantha kokila ganam la vinipinchindhi, anthe parugu paruguna video shop ki velli ventane aa tape thechukoni oka 2-3 rojullo aa cinema ni oka 10-15 sarlu choosi untanu. Aa tharvatha eppudoo Jurrasic Park movie vachindhi, idhi kooda theatre lo choosina gurthu ledhu, kaani adhi kooda video rent chesukoni choosamu, adhi naaku thelisi nenu choosina naa first hollywood movie anukunta. Appatlo aa cinema chaala nachindhi.

Aa tharuvatha konni vela cinemalu choosina ee modati cinema theepi gnapakaalu ala manasulo nilichipoyayi...

Inka cheppukuntoo pothe chaala undhi, andhuke deeni bhagalu ga vibhajinchi samarpisthunnanu. Opika unantha varaku chavukondi, meeku cinemala meeda abhimanam unte, mee gnapakalanu nemaruvesukondi.

Tharuvayi bhagam nunchi, naa jeevitham lo vividha ghattalalo cinemalu, naa jevitham payina vaati prabhavam, aa cinemala nunchi manam nerchukodagina manchi vishayala gurinchi vyakthaparusthanu.

Possibility vs. Probability

If you try for something, there is a good chance (probability) that you might get it.
But, if you never try there is no chance (not possible) of getting anything.
I can start this with a simple example. Say, a jackpot lottery has been announced. If you go and buy a lottery ticket there is probability that you might win the lottery (you never know). If you don't get the ticket it is definitely not possible (impossible) to win the lottery, and probability is zero(0). But, if you do buy the ticket then there is a "1 in n" probability for you, and it doesn't matter though the odds against you are "n-1". It doesn't mean you have to keep shelling out money on lottery tickets, it is just a metaphor :). Grab that chance in life though if it is 1 in million probability.

In most cases I see people (including me) saying it is impossible to do something. In most cases that "something" is something than can be possible. But the probability of getting it done might be less.
Let's get into some Mathematics (most people hate it but I like it):
If something 'might' be possible then the probability comes into play. It means that the value of probability is greater than zero (and less than 1 :)). If something is not possible then the probability of it happening is zero. So this means that possibility and probability are dependent. Also when it is possibly it is either 0 or 1, if it is probably then it is between 0 and 1.

So when do we say or decide that something is impossible. It is quite obvious that it all depends on how we think. For example, when I ask, "what is the probability of getting heads when I toss a coin". We all would think and say it is 50% (or 1/2). What would be the probability of not getting either heads or tails and you would think it is not possible. But lets think differently(crazily), what if I tossed the coin in big pile of sand like a sand dune, or on the top of deep water. Take sand for instance, it might be heads or tails or it might land vertically or it might even get lost (even if I find it, it is tough to say what the result was). So, it is not that easy to say something is not possible.

I was watching this movie "Pursuit of Happiness". Will smith is divorced, left with a 8-9 year old kid struggling to get a job (working as a intern/trainee). One day when there is football game and kid is big fan of the game. he keeps asking his father if they can go to the game. But the father is more worried about selling his self-designed equipment to make some money to at least survive for next few weeks. The kid keeps asking and the father was replying "possibly". The father asks his son to make sure he understood. "So what does possibly mean?". The kid replies "something like probably". Father says, "No, probably means there is a good chance we might go, possibly means we might or we might not go. The father asks again, "So what does possibly mean?".The son replies in despair, "it means we are not going". At the end of the day though his father could not sell the machine he manages to take him to the football game. The father was trying to create a hope that he might fulfill his sons wish and he was trying for every possible way. The son on the other side did not believe his father and thought it was possible.

Just like this, in most cases in our lives if we want to get/do something we tend to think about the result and the odds against us even before we try to do it and we end up thinking it is not possible, finally we do nothing and just give up. Most of the things that we want to do are possible, it just depends on the way how we measure the odds in favor and against us, it's all just in our mind. Let me give you an example. Say, you are in a basket ball court, how hard would it be to throw the ball in the basket from one end to the other. What would be the probability? Is it really possible? The probability is definitely 1/2. But talking about the possibility, yes definitely it is possible if you are really good at it. Let's just think, all you have to do is calculate the distance between you and the basket, the speed and angle required considering the wind direction(if any) and the force at which you need to throw it. It might need lot of practice to get all this, but can be done, it is possible. Anything you want to do in life is just like that.

If some thing is possible it is no more probable, if something is probable it might be possible. Possibility or Probability, no matter what it is, but it is your ability to make something possible.


P.S: This might not make sense at all. Please ignore if it doesn't. In either case leave a comment.

Kalalo...

This post is written in Telugu (language).

కనులు మూసి తెరిచే దాక కలలో నిలవై కలవరపెదతావు
కనులు తెరిచిన క్షణం నుంచి మదిలో ఊసువై ఊరేగుతావు
కదలి వెళ్ళిన చోటల్లా మెదిలే ప్రతి ఊహవి నువ్వే
కవితలో రాసిన ప్రతి అక్షరానికి స్పూర్తివి నువ్వే
కలలో ఉండిపోతనంటే కలకాలం నిదురపోనా
నిజమై వస్తానంటే నిదురమరచి వేచి ఉండనా

నాకు నువ్వు నచ్చినంత ఇంకెవరు నచ్చలేదు
నిన్ను నేను ప్రేమించినంత ఇంకెవ్వరు చెయ్యలేరు
అని నేను నీకు ఎప్పుడూ చెప్పకనే చెబుతూ ఉన్నా...
దానికి నువ్వుచెప్పని బదులు నాకు వినిపిస్తూ ఉన్నా...
ప్రతి క్షణం ఇదే బ్రహ్మలో బతికేస్తున్న
ప్రతి రోజు అదే కలలో నీకై ఎదురుచూస్తున్న

నా నీడై నావెంటే నువ్వు వస్తున్న...
నీ జాడ తెలియక నేను నిన్ను వెతుకుతున్న
నా కంటిపాపై కన్నుల్లో నీవే నిండి ఉన్నా...
నా కంట కన్నీరై కరిగిపోకు ఏ నిమిషాన
నా ప్రతి అడుగు నన్ను నీ వైపే నడిపిస్తున్న...
నా ప్రతి కలలో నేను నీకై ఎదురుచూస్తున్న

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Kanulu moosi theriche dhaaka kalalo nilavai kalavarapedathavu
kanulu therichina kshanam numchi madhilo ossuvai vooreguthavu
Kadhali vellina chotalla medhile prathi oohavi nuvve
kavithalo raasina prathi aksharaaniki spoorthivi nuvve
kalalo undipothanante kalakaalam nidhuraponaa
nijamayi vasthanante nidhuramarachi vechi undanaa

naaku nuvvu nachinantha inkevaru nachaledhu
ninnu nenu preminchinantha inkevvaru cheyyaleru
ani nenu neeku eppudoo cheppakane chebuthoo unna
daaniki nuvvu cheppani badhulu naaku vinipisthoounna
prathi kshanam idhey brahmalo bathikesthunna
prathi roju adhey kalalo neekai edhuruchoosthunna

naa needayi naavente nuvvu vasthoo unna
nee jaada theliyaka nenu ninnu vethukuthunna
naa kanti paapai kannullo neeve nindi unna
naa kanta kanneerai karigipoku ye nimishana
naa prathi adugu nannu nee vaipe nadipisthunna
naa prathi kalalo nenu neekai edhuruchoosthunna

nuvve kavali

This post is written in Telugu (language).

vesavilo vennela la vennela lo velluva la
vekuva lo melakuva la melakuva lo O kala la
kila kila pade koyila gala gala pare yerula
mila mila merise tharala thala thala poose puvvula
nuvvala undi pove naa gundelo ella velala

ningilo mabbula merupula mymarapula
oohallo ooyala urumula chinukula
nelapayina nenila unnane edarila
ningi nunchi chinukula nela payiki digi raa ila
nannu nuvve cherali nalo nuvve ekam kavali


muvvala siri muvvala...sandadi neevalla
navvula chiru navuula...savvadi neevalla
harivillu rangula siri mallela vaagula
chirugali la nuvvala chiguraakula nenila
nannu nuvve thakali naa pranam nuvve kavali

P.S.: I wrote this about 4-5 years ago

Indians at Oscars

Finally, the day has come when India made it presence felt at the Oscars. I am as happy and proud as every other Indian. Though "Slumdog Millionaire" is not an Indian/Hindi film, most part of it definetly has the Indian/hindi cinema kind of narration. It felt like hollywood has taken a leaf from Indian/hindi cinema. I can say "Slumdog Millinaire" is a mature Indian movie made in hollywood (by a British director). Still we can't take any credit for it. But definitely we enjoy its success. It was great to see AR Rahman, Gulzar and Resul Pookutty winning oscars. It was even great to see AR Rahman perform in Oscar ceremony.
I was reading a lot of news about oscars the next day and found some facts which I didnot even know before. I would like to share some it.

The only category where an Indian has previously (before 2009) won an Oscar is costume design, by Bhanu Athaiiya for Gandhi. (Shekhar Kapoor directed film Elizabeth - The Golden Age won an award for costume design and Alexandra Byrne was the costume designer.)
Satyajit Ray was awarded academy (Oscar) honorary award for his contribution to world cinema in 1992.
Although some movies Like Mother India(1957), Salaam Bombay(1988) and Lagaan(2001) made it to Oscar Nominations in Best Froeign Language Film category, none of them won.
List of Indian submissions for the Academy Award for Best Foreign Language Film

Actually it is not possible for Indian movies to enter Oscars, because Oscars are only for Hollywood movies. Best foreign language film is the only category were an Indian movie can win a oscar. We have great technicians, directors and actors like Mani Ratnam, Ashutosh Gowarikar, Deepa Mehta, Mira Nair, Rakeysh Omprakash Mehra, Shekhar Kapur, P.C. Sreeram, Shyam Benegal, Sanjay Leela Bhansali, Aamir Khan, Kamal Haasan, AR Rahman and many more (tough to name all of them) who have made there presence felt to the global cinema. They can only make it to Oscars if they work for Hollywood movies (like AR Rahman, Gulzar and Resul Pookutty). So Oscar does not define the quality of work they do. I would like to see more technicians and actors like this who will make mature movies and make it a point to the global audience.

P.S: This article includes information from different websites and some of my views. The information provided might be incorrect.

DreaMatrix - the dream world

This is a continuation to my earlier article "Living in your dreams" which was incomplete. Say a person average lifetime is 60 years. He does so many things in this span of life. But on an average he will be sleeping for 8hrs/day. It means out of 60 years of life, 20 years he will be just sleeping and doing nothing else. Now how many of you think that this is a waste?
In my case, the time I spend for sleeping is not wasted, because sleeping is not just like any other thing that I do in my life. Through sleeping, I get a chance to live in a different world, that is "my world of dreams"(dream-world) or you can also call it "the second world" or "virtual world" and I named it as "DreaMatrix".

DreaMatrix is a virtual world were I have the control on most of the things that have/can/will happen. I get plugged into this world once I go to sleep on my bed. I can be anything and do anything I wish in this world. I can be a super hero, a college going guy, a passoinate lover, a common man or just be myself. In this world I even have the ability to travel in time. I can go back to my childhood, my college days and even in to the future. I can just switch between countries and places in few seconds. Most the people I know in this real world also exist in the virtual one just playing their original characters. I also do see some virtual characters, like a monster when I am a super hero, or a unknown girl with whom I am in love. If I am really missing someone, and they are too far from me in the real world, I can just go and see them in the virtual world. Like I can just go to India and see my parents, I can go back to the past college days, see my college and friends. Nothing can stop. I can even go to the future and see my friends, my sister or sometime even myself getting married. For some reason if I get kicked out of the virtual world in the middle of a situation/scene, like any disturbance, or if I have to wake up (as I have to go to work); there is a possiblitly that the next time I go back to sleep, I enter the virtual world and can continue from where I left. Though I break a lot of rules that we follow in the real world, I do respect some.

Often, it is really easy for me to get into this world, but most of the times it turns out to be tough to get out of it, because I have to wake up and I am very lazy to do so. And most of the times it is tough to figure/find out that I am actually in a dream, then I would be thinking that's the reality and would continue in that mode. It is really strange that sometime, I will know that I am actually in my dream world. That is when I tend to have a control over it. I am a big time movie lover. So most of the things/scenes happening in the virtual world would be filmi/movie style. So every time I enter this world there is a specific story with a theme. The story is then processed and a script is written with interesting scenes. These scenes are directed one at a time with tight screenplay and crisp/sharp editing. And I hold the total control of all these. In some cases I might just leave the control to "fate" as it happens in real world. But all this goes in vain, because the moment I wake up, I hardly remember any of this stuff, my mind will be just left with some traces. I think really hard to trace it back, but doesn't help much. But, I do remember some of them.
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In general, it is not just me, but most us do dream a lot. Many a times when we are surprised by some action/situation we pinch ourselves to feel the difference between dream and reality. It is the nature of most dreams that we take them for reality and while dreaming we are unaware that we are in fact in a dream-world. Even if we know we are in a dream, would we be able to take control of the situation and circumstances and take or change any further actions that take place in the dream? Would we be able to respond the way we want to? Would we be able to do anything in the dream? Does our senses work in a dream? Tough to answer these questions. It is obvious that we eventually wake up, and realize that it is in fact a dream and the most or some part of the experience is stored in the mind. It is really hard for most of us to remember where it started or where it ended and what all happened in a dream.

Most of us, at one time or another, have been struck with the thought that we might mistake a dream for reality, or reality for a dream. When we dream we are often blissfully ignorant that we are dreaming. Given this, and the fact that dreams often seem as vivid and realistic as real life, how can you rule out the possibility that you might be dreaming even now, as you sit at your computer and read this? It seems we have no justification for the belief that we are not dreaming. If so, then it seems we similarly have no justification in thinking that the world we experience is the real world. What if the world round us is not real? Then are we just some fictional characters living in a dream of the Almighty?

manchi x chedu, thappu x oppu

This post is written in Telugu (language).

edhi manchi? edhi chedu? edhi thappu? edhi oppu?

Manaki thelisindhe manchi, manam chesedhi oppu anukovatam lo thappemi ledhu. Alage itharula vishayam lo kooda vaallaki thelisindhi vaallaki manchi anipinchachu, vaallu chesedhi vaallaki oppu anipinchachu. Prathi okkaru oke laaga, leka manalaaga alochinchali ani anukolemu kadha. Manchi ayina chedu ayina, thappu ayina oppu ayina vaari vaari abhiprayalu, samayam-sandharbham, paristhithulu batti, vaari alochana vidhanam maruthundhi. ee prakriyalo eeroju manaki thappu/chedu anipinchedhi, repu oppu/manchi anipinchachu; ee roju nachani vyakthi repu nachanuvachu.

Manam putti, manaki ooha thelisinappati nunchi prathi roju edho okati (oka vishayam) nerchukuntam. Perigina parisaralu, mana thalli-thandrula pempakam, guruvulu cheppe vidhya-budhulu, bandhuvulu, snehithulu, peddalu, samajamlo, jeeevithamlo jarigina sangatanalu, ila prathi okka chota, prathi okka saari, prathi okkari deggera, yedho okati, yentho kontha nerchukuntune untam. Andhuchetha prathi okkaru nirdhisthamayina abhiprayalatho oka alochana vidhanam erparuchukuni, vaati adharanga jeevitham sagisthamu. Veeti adharanga edhi manchi/oppu, edhi chedu/thappu ani pariseelinche ingitha gnanam (common sense) penchukuntam.

udhaharanaki madhyapanam, dhoomapanam (drinking alcohol, smoking cigarattes) chedu alavatlu antaru chaala mandhi. ee alavatlu unde varini asahyinchukune vaalu kooda untaru. evari alavatlu vaarivi, inkokari alavtla gurinchi manam endhuku vaarini dveshinchali, leka varu chedda vyakthulu anukovali? aa alavatlu undatam valla vaariki chedu kaani, manaki kaadhu kadha. ala kakunda aa alavatuni itharula payina rudhatam, leka itharulaki ibandhi kaliginchadam thappakunda thappe. naa drushtilo edhuti manishini badha pettakunda chesey pani edhayina oppe, padhi mandhiki upayoge pade pani edhayina manche.

Alage ithanu (palaana vyakthi) manchivadu kadu, ithanu naaku nachaledhu ani manalo manam, mana snehithulatho antoo untam. Oka manishi naaku nachakapothe adhi naa samasya (problem) kaani athani samasya kaadhu. Endhukante naa alochana vidhanam, manushulni pareeseelinche vidhanam batti oka vyakthi naaku nachaledhu, adhi kevalam naa abhiprayam. Kevalam okari abhiprayam adharanga oka manishi cheddavadu ani ela anukuntam?

prathi okkarilonu manchi chedulu untayi. Prathi okkaru edho okasari edho oka thappu chesi untaru. Edhuti vaari abhiprayalani, alochana vidhanaanni kinchapariche hakku manaki ledhu. Manam choosina jeevitham lo, manam thelusukunna prapancham lo manam nerchukundhi gorantha, nerchukovalsindhi, thelusukovalsindhi kondantha. Ala yerojuki aaroju prathi okkari deggara, prathi okka chota, edho okati entho kontha nerchukuntoo mana alochana vidhanam, abhiprayalanu savarinchukuntoo undali, anthe.

Kosamerupu: Eeroju naaku ila anipinchindhi kabatti ila raasanu, repu inkola anipinche avakasam undhi.

Chivari maata: Kevalam naa abhiprayalu, alochana vidhanam, naa jeevitham lo jarigina sangatanala adharanga nenu idhi raasanu. idhi evarini udhesinchidhi kaadhu, evari abhiprayalani vyathirekinchalani kadhu. Oka vela meeku ala anipisthe kshaminchagelaru.

I am Happy :)

I am Happy.... I am Happy......

I am Happy that I cannot see this beautiful world and all great creations by God, because I busy with my laptop.
I am Happy that I cannot sing, I cannot dance, I cannot jump, I cannot shout, because I am in a deep sleep.
I am Happy, because I have a wonderful family- best parents, caring siblings, well wishers.
I am Happy, that I don't have a lot of friends, because I have few good friends.
I am Happy, that I am not eating anything today, because I am on a diet.
I am Happy, that I don't have a dress to wear, because I did not do my laundry.
I am Happy, that I did not have job for one year, because I got one today.
I am Happy, that I don't have money in my pocket, because I use credit cards.
I am Happy, that I am bored, because the movie is not good.
I am Happy, that I was not able to get a doctor appointment, because I don't need one.

I am Happy, Yes I am :)
I am Happy, because I am still existing in this beautiful world.

Are you???

Dasvidaniya - The Best Good Bye Ever

Dasvidaniya is a Hindi Movie, released some time in November,2008. The movie is about a normal person, a middle class bachelor 'Amar Kaul' who goes to work early in the morning, prepares a things to do list for the day and after working for 10+ hours returns home making sure he has got all his listed things done. A routine visit to a doctor reveals that he has stomach cancer and will be "living" only for next 3 months. He realizes that he has been "dead" all these days and decides to "live the life" for this 3 months.
Each and everyone of us can connect with Amar's character. We see Amar in our daily life. If you haven't, after you are done reading this, and after you watch the movie go and see yourself in front of a mirror and think for a moment.

"Amar is symbolic of all these people who have always wanted to do things but kept them on hold." -(from Dasvidaniya website)

Just think about what do you do every day right from the time you wake up to the time you go to bed. And if someone asks you what do you do daily. Most of us would say, "It is a routine life. I go to work, come back late, tired and stressed out, don't have enough time and energy to do other stuff, so I go back to bed. In the weekends I need to take care my house, my car, my laundry, go to a movie/go out with friends." That's not bad. Most us might be doing some things which we would like to do in our lives and most us might be happy with it. I just want everyone of us to think what other things we always wanted to do in our life, but would often neglect/ignore/forget or never really start thinking seriously about doing them.

It can be anything. Let me give you some examples of things what most people would like to do, but have some reasons for not doing them.
"I want to meet/call my friend(s) but didn't get a chance or don't have enough time."
"I wanted to say something to my friend/ someone special, but didn't have the courage in me."
"I want to say how much I love my parents/friends/or someone special, but didn't get a chance or don't have enough time. "
"I had a problem with my friend/or someone special, and we never spoke to each other. I would like to talk to/meet that person, but I can't because I have a ego problem."
"I want to help someone, someone who is in a need. Like orphan kids, people dying with hunger, people who doesn't have basic commodities, physically/mentally challenged people."

If you ask me, I always wanted to all of the above and even more.
"I would like to learn how to play a guitar/piano. I love to dance and would want to learn more."
"I would like to go on a trip to Europe, Paris,...... New York(at least)......"
"I would like to go the gym, loose some weight and try to be fit."
"I love to cook, so I would like to try more and more varieties."
"I would like to go back to India and stay with my parents and take of them."

The list goes on and on.....
It can be anything. It can be as simple as, "going early to work and getting back home early, so that I can sit in my balcony and have a cup of coffee, watching people around and enjoying the cool breeze."

Why don't we start thinking about things we would like/love to do and make a list of it. Make some time out our busy schedule and try to do atleast somethings out of our big list.
I don't want anyone to totally change the way they lead their life. I am nobody to tell you how to lead your life or that you are not happy with your life. After all it is your life, "just think of it". Most of us are gifted with everything we need to live. Every person in this world has problems. Do we really have problems? I don't have any. We are atleast lucky to be still alive.

So why don't we "live the life". "We are not sure if we would have another life. It's now or never"

Note - You might think this article is good/decent/bad or just a piece of crap. But, please do watch the movie(Dasvidaniya) if you can. You might not miss a lot, but you will miss "some-thing" (in your life) if you miss this movie.

Disclaimer - This movie made quite an impact on my mind/thinking. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. If you think that the way I think is wrong, please forgive me.

Extraas - After watching this movie, I actually had the courage to talk to my best friend about a major decision in his life. I always wanted to tell him about this "one thing", but was afraid that I would mess up and he might take it in a wrong way. I was ignoring. But after all he is my friend and I have to make him realize what I think about "it". Now I am very happy that I have atleast tried, and it is upto him to take a decision, because it's his life.

okka chance, okka prayatham (completed)

"If you try for something, there is a chance that you might get it. But, if you never try there is no chance of getting anything."

The rest of the article is written in telugu.

"okka chance.. oke okka chance", idhi KHADGAM cinemalo Ravi Teja dialouge.
aa okka chance isthe thanento choopistha ani cinemalo Ravi Teja ne kaadhu, nija jeevitham lo chaala mandhi feel avutharu. Aa chance evaro istharu ani wait cheyakunda maname aa chance kosam prayathnam cheyali ani choopinchadu, sadhinchadu.
So manam kashtapadi prayathnisthe edhayina sadhinchachu ani thelusukunnam kadha....

okka chance kosam enno prayathnalu cheyyali.....kaani enni avakasalu(chance lu) unna asalu kondharu prayathname cheyyaru. avakasam oka sare thalupu koduthundhi antaru, ante avakasam antha viluvayyindhi kadha. mari kondhariki avakasam thalupu koduthoone unna, okkasari ayina thalupu therichi chooddam anna prayathnam endhuku cheyyaru?
repu aa avakasam chejaaripoyaka, ayyo okka sari prayathnam cheyyalsindhi anukukoni badhapadatam thappa inkemi cheyyalem.

udhaharanaki(for example), oka job ki try chesthe vachche chance untundhi anukondi, kaani "aaahh entho mandhi apply chestharu, daaniki chaala talent kaavali" ani vaari meedha vaariki confidence lekunda vadhilestharu kondharu.

inko sandharbham lo, oka ammayi - oka abbayi, idharu manchi friends, okarante okariki cheppalenantha ishtam. idhi premo mari emo??? ane confusion iddhari lo untundhi, adhi common. Asalu antha ishtam unnapudu, okka sari serious ga alochinchi, okariki okaru, ledha evaro okaru chepthene kadha katha mundhuku saagedhi. Aha ala cheyyaru, chepthe emavuthundhi, emanukuntaro; mana pakka vaalu (society, friends) emanukuntaro, parents emantaro. Ivanni vaale oohinchesukoni, edho veellani minchina medhavulu leranukoni; pros./cons. derive chesesi, analysis lu chesesi... Last ki idhi ayye pani kaadhule ani vadhilestharu. Ammayi ki evadithono pelli, abbayiki inkevarithono pelli. Arey, manaki thelisina, nachina, baaga ishtapadina vyakthi, mana jeevithaantham thodunde avakasam vachindhi, adhi sadhviniyogam chesukovali kadha, okka prayathnam chesi unte phalitham(result) undedhemo?

andhariki preminchi pellilu chesukomani nenu cheppatledhu, aa situation lo unde vaalu ila manchi avakasam pogottukuntunnaru ani chepthunna.

prema(love), sneham(friendship), bandhuthvam(relationship), chaduvu(education), undhyogam(job), vyaparam(business) ila mana jeevitham lo enno bhaagalu(parts) unnayi. prathi okka bhaagam(part of life) lo prathi okka paniki edho oka phalitham(result) untundhi. Adhi Otamo - gelupo, macho - chedo; edhayina sare. Manam chese pani thappu kaadhu ani manaki poorthi vishwasam unnapudu phalitham asinchadhu, asalu oohinchaddhu.. mana prayathnam manam cheddham. repu phalitham ela unna, kannesam...kaneesam...okka prayathnam chesam anna thrupthi ayina miguluthundhi.

evaru nenu?

This is written in telugu.

evaru nenu? nenu evaru? nenu meeku thelusa? ani nenu mimmalni adagatam ledhu.
idhi chadhive vaaru ee prasnani thamaku thaamu vesukovalsinadhi, samadhanam vethukkovalsinadhe.
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nenu evaru? evaru nenu? nannu nenu gurthupattalekunnanu
naaku nenu nachinantha inkevariki nachanemo
nannu nenu dweshinchinantha inkevaru cheyyaremo
naaku nene goppa anukune naaku pichi emo
ninna unna nenu nedu endhuku lenu
nenu nedu cheppalenu repu evaru nenu
nenu kaani nenu nenu endhuku ayyanu
naaku nenu arthamkaanu nenu evaro thelusukolenu
nenu evaru? evaru nenu? nannu nenu gurthupattalekunnanu

Enjoy the life :)

A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to visit their old university professor. The conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and in life. Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups - porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to the coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said: "If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal for you to want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups."

Now consider this: Life is the coffee and the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold and contain life, and do not change the quality of life. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee God has provided. So, don't let the cups drive you ... enjoy the coffee instead!

Courtesy: Picked from a forwarded email.